The Islamic Garden
Abdel Hakeem Heinz - It
Took Time but Islam Entered His Heart
This article is based on an
interview with Abdul Hakeem Heinz, from London.
Abdul
Hakeem Heinz was brought up in the south of London. He was first
introduced to Islam at the tender age of seven when his mother accepted
the deen. Years later he traveled and lived in Egypt for a few years
and further developed his knowledge and understanding of Islam as well
as his skills in Arabic language.
He
was just a young boy when his mother converted and it was then that he
and his brother and sister changed from going to church to practicing
Islam. This was quite a shock for him at first because his comfort zone
had been in the Christian concepts that he had previously been taught.
Initially, Islam was presented to him as a set of strict rules that had
to be followed. He admits that at first he found it all a bit tough to
deal with. At seven he was expected to pray and fast. He also had to
learn the Arabic language and he found himself praying and reading
Quran but without understanding what he was saying and why he had to do
all this.
However,
the years passed and after some time it all started to settle in and
Islam became his way of life. As he looks back, he notes that
as
a teenager, it was natural that he would start to question what life is
about. As he passed through the turbulence of his teenage years, the
meaning of the message of Islam started to touch his heart and became
more and more acceptable to him. He also began to understand what Islam
meant in his life and as he learned more, he perceived Islam as the
correct way.
Heinz
admits, “In my early teens, it was something to be ashamed of to be a
Muslim. At school I was taught Islamic studies but I was also taught
that it was just like Hinduism and Sikhism.” It affected him that Islam
and those who followed it were considered ‘different’ from others. When
he started secondary school he did not want to be associated with Islam
but he kept it in his heart. He explains his reaction, “It was because
of the pressure from outside, but at the same time, I hadn’t gone into
Islam enough to justify my faith as I could have.” The public
perception of Islam at that time affected how he presented himself as a
Muslim. He wanted to be among the common crowd which is a natural part
of human nature. This perception did not change until he was about
fourteen years old.
At
this age, he changed in the way he practiced Islam and how he presented
his religion to others. This happened after he traveled to Holland and
Spain. His journey to Spain was especially significant as there he had
the chance to interact more with practicing Muslims. He comments,
“There was a minority Muslim community where I was in Spain but they
were respected and some of the youth of my age group were very
interested in religion. This made me no longer feel ashamed. Young
people were embracing Islam and this made me feel proud.”
When
he returned to the UK from Spain, he was about fifteen. He went back to
school but the difference this time was that he was a Muslim from the
inside! He was much more confident and so he started to talk about
Islam more. Heinz says happily, “I could actually say ‘I am
Muslim’.”
Then
attitudes towards Islam started to change among his peers at school. He
relates, “At that time, being a Muslim was considered jazzy, snappy and
cool! This helped me become even more confident. One of the things that
helped me through all these changes was my independence to know
Almighty Allah.” He admits reading when he was by himself and
memorizing Quran. He also says that when he was a teenager, as a
household his family members were Muslims, but Islam was not always
being practiced properly. Despite all this, there was something in his
heart that was always drawn toward Almighty Allah and Islam. If he
found life difficult or had problems he would pray two rakats and pour
his heart out to Almighty Allah. He states, “I learned to submit myself
to Allah.”
Heinz
believes that Muslims have to be sincere to Almighty Allah and recite
Quran everyday and this is what helped him to pass through the
difficult teenage years.
He
noticed that as he became stronger people changed their perceptions
about him and started to respect him. He says that if a person acts
shyly, feels embarrassed and behaves apologetically, people will put
him to one side but if he does not really care about what people think,
because he knows that he is on the truth, people will respect him
because of the confidence he has. Heinz says with surety, “People
respect that kind of character. People respect you if you are
yourself.” He believes that we do not owe anything to our friends or
the group we are with, and that we should just be ourselves. He advises
new Muslims not to try to be like anyone else.
He
is now twenty-three years old and believes that generally in the West
people his age are struggling in terms of responsibility and knowing
what is expected of them as adults. He finds that they are not sure
because they do not belong to a certain culture or their culture drives
them to succumb to this world that is filled with commotion and strife.
He says that when he was seventeen years old and decided to practice
Islam properly, that helped him to grow because Islam gave him a strict
code of conduct. He followed what it says and tried to understand his
role as a human being. Slowly he came to know that he has
responsibilities and will ultimately become a proper adult and a better
person: more considerate and mindful of others. He says that without
Islam he would have been lost. He is grateful to Almighty Allah that He
has brought him so far. With Islam a person can stand out among their
peers because Islam makes a person mature.
He
says, “Gaining Islamic knowledge in today’s world is important and we
cannot escape shaytan as he wants to keep us away from where we should
be. New Muslims want to get on the right path and it is important to
keep good company because a person becomes what his group is. If the
person around you will bring you down you might have to cut relations
with him.” Heinz sees that his time in Egypt helped him to see how
Muslims live and that it is great to feel you belong to such a
universal community. Apart from the knowledge of Arabic and Islam he
obtained, Egypt also helped him to learn more about how to be a Muslim
in everyday life.
He
says that we learn from the people we mix with and that we should read
Quran regularly and ask Almighty Allah to help us understand it
properly. Everyone should find out what classes are happening in their
area and attend them and spend time in the masjid. People can also go
onto Islamic websites and be involved in the community around them.
He
observes that in London there are a lot of places where a person can
obtain knowledge and there are prominent speakers. He advises new
Muslims to seek out such classes and lectures because not only will you
gain knowledge, but you will also meet good people.
Looking
to the future, Heinz says that he just makes du`aa and hopes. He says,
“I am more patient now because of the experiences I’ve had. I gained a
lot of stability by having learned about the Companions and the Prophet
(peace and blessings be upon him). He sees that the best way to be a
man and the best way to be a woman are by living according to the
standards of Almighty Allah.
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